Lately, I’ve been feeling pretty overwhelmed. My weekend schedule consists of a birthday party, a two photo shoots with clients (including wedding scrapbook consult), and a ten-page paper that is due on Monday. Also, I just remembered I’m making the cake for that birthday tomorrow.
I haven’t had much time lately to do the things I should be doing, let alone the things I want to be doing. I’ve just recently started feeling the physical effects of this in the past week (sick, feverish, feeling unwell in general). It’s dawning on me that there’s a difference between should and want, and that it is time for me to reevaluate. If something isn’t serving me, I’m going to let it go.
So, I am working on it. There are a ton of ways to make more time for myself through cutting out unnecessary things. To do this, I’m looking at what I want to achieve in the next year/5 years/etc, and seeing what I need to do to get there. I started with ending my teaching career, because obviously THAT was going nowhere pleasant (thanks to those who helped me transition). I don’t think a career in a library would serve me well, since it’s along those same lines, so I am officially nixing that. No ten page paper this weekend? — Hello, more time. Seems drastic, but I think this needed to happen last semester. You guys will see my thought process on that tomorrow.
What do I want now? I want to focus on writing. I want to take pictures of awesome places and people. I want to help those same eat their wedding cakes and put their memories together in pretty scrapbooks. I want to create things with my hands and be the better for it. And, dammit, I’m going work toward getting paid to do all of that. Most of all, I want to be my own boss. And I am working harder than ever toward those goals.
If you feel the similarly, here’s the reading that inspired me to write about this:
Have you had to make some drastic cuts in the past? What brought you to those conclusions? Let me know!
– Thanks to Mike, for believing so hard in me. –